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If somebody asked me what is clubbing 3 years ago, i would say that clubbing is bad. good boys and girls should guai guai stay at home and not go clubbing.

Now when somebody asks me what is clubbing, my first instinct is to say BAD too. You either have -
congenital cyanotic heart disease, infective endocarditis, bronchogenic carcinoma, suppurative lung disease, interstitial lung disease, liver cirrhosis, coeliac disease, inflammatory bowel disease, thyroid toxicosis. Well you can be born with it too. but still.

Medicine has changed my life in ways i've never imagined. In ways i probably haven't got the wisdom to realize.



Was talking to one of my bedside tutors the other day, and i realize just how crappy my student life has been.

He went back to the wards everyday after dinner. he said that in the evening, when you're tired and all, is the test of your perseverance. Learning in clinical years happens in the wards.
I dont spend enough time in the wards. I dont go to wards after dinner. Heck, i dont even go to wards early in the morning. My level of perseverence is practically zero.

What happened to all the training last year? Coming back to uni for extra classes during holidays, working extra hard for PCL's, coming home and still feeling want to read more. Where is it now?

I was inspired by my tutor last year. He made me realize that I can do so much better. That I can be brilliant. He's someone who sees what I have inside. Every now and then he still calls me, asking me how's studies, encouraging me. And by the way he always asks whether i've found myself a girlfriend lol. Everytime i tell him 'no', and he'll laugh and tell me there are plenty of fishes in the ocean. That I should focus on studying. He's probably right.
Anyway, friendship is indeed a priority. But it should be balanced with studies.

I do enjoy studying medicine. But everytime I complain of tiredness when I'm supposed to go to the wards.
Perseverance.

Of course it's important to have fun.
But remember why'd you pick this field in the first place. Remember what are you supposed to be doing in JB.

Be the movivated boy again.

Quoting him,
Soar .

Grant me 3 wishes and i would wish for:
the serenity to accept things i cannot change; the courage to change things i can; and the wisdom to know the difference.
damn. if only everyday's my birthday. if only the genie in the lamp or bottle can be found lying around.
whatever else is not meant to be, please take it far far away.


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