Incompetent

Who can I blame?
Who can I be pissed at?
Him?
Everybody?

No one but myself.

I suck.
Dont tell me otherwise.
It's not true.
Dont tell me it's ok.
It's not.
Dont tell me passing is good enough.
It's not.

It's not.


I'm just not good enough.
In a lot of things, in everything.

This frustration is too large to contain, too heavy a burden for myself to carry.


For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
 


I wish you were here.
To hold me as I shake uncontrollably.
To shower me with tender loving care and all the attention in the world you can give, not spare.
To spend a simple few simple moments trying to talk things through with me.
To pull me through this bottleneck.

To give me a GTN.
Or tramal.